told her.
He always began to think about it when he was cross or tired, she
said to herself. And he has been cross today. Perhaps perhaps he has
been thinking about it all afternoon.
She stood still, looking down at the carpet and thinking.
I said I would never go back again she hesitated, knitting her
brows but perhaps, just perhaps, I will go and see if he wants me in
the morning. Perhaps he ll try to throw his pillow at me again, but I
think I ll go.
CHAPTER XVII.
A TANTRUM
She had got up very early in the morning and had worked hard in the
garden and she was tired and sleepy, so as soon as Martha had brought
her supper and she had eaten it, she was glad to go to bed. As she laid
her head on the pillow she murmured to herself:
I ll go out before breakfast and work with Dickon and then afterward I
believe I ll go to see him.
She thought it was the middle of the night when she was awakened by
such dreadful sounds that she jumped out of bed in an instant. What was
it what was it? The next minute she felt quite sure she knew. Doors
were opened and shut and there were hurrying feet in the corridors and
someone was crying and screaming at the same time, screaming and crying
in a horrible way.
It s Colin, she said. He s having one of those tantrums the nurse
called hysterics. How awful it sounds.
As she listened to the sobbing screams she did not wonder that people
were so frightened that they gave him his own way in everything rather
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